Happy new year dad, the second one without you. Every event like this will always be tinged just a bit blue that you're not here to celebrate it with us. Will the ache ever go away, I'm not sure. I miss you everyday, everyday something reminds me of you, mainly things I do myself as I am a part of you. I miss our family and I miss having my rock in my life, I'm stumbling through darkness trying to find my way still, I miss my dada so much, too much x
1st January 2025
This week has been haunting Dad, I'm struggling a lot with how you died and how to deal with everything I saw. I went up the hospice today hoping it would help with the restlessness I'm feeling to no avail. What you went through wasn't a common experience, it's hard to find any support groups or any other individuals who have seen what we saw, I have no where to channel these feelings apart from here. I miss you terribly and I I've been hearing your voice alot recently, I'm struggling this week with you not being here it breaks my heart
Jade Hancock
1st December 2024
Hello Dada it's been a hot minute, your grandson is a TERROR you would've been laughing at my suffering as we enter the toddler phase. Ollie went to his first Christmas party yesterday, it was hosted by St Luke's. I've been thinking a lot recently about if there's still bits of you scattered around in the world. Like if the tags with your handwriting on are still in the herb garden you built or if I've walked past a penny you've dropped. With Christmas coming up again it will technically be the second one without you, I'll hang up your decorations for you so Ollie can grow up with them as I did. I miss you so very much dada, love you ♥️
Jade
18th November 2024